“Why is it happening to me? What am I going to do? Will I be
able to make it?” The ‘W’ sequel kept me wide awake. It was another sleepless
night, thinking over it. My hands reached cell phone and its already ten past
5’o clock in the morning. Without further attempts to sleep (for it will be a
failure) I walked past my bedroom to veranda. The day is yet to dawn and clouds
were dark resembling my vision of future. I wished for a light that whisks away
the darkness, not only in clouds but in me. I was so desperate, its the kid
in me implanted a thought, “If I can see a light whisking the darkness so will
I overcome the plight”. It wasn’t rational but a hope, after all life isn't mathematics. That minute I decided to catch the sunrise and throttled my bike
in search of light.
Dusky streets, mild breeze and of course the bike, morning
drives are always gift. I parked my bike and started walking along the shore.
Taking few steps I saw a group shaking their legs to aerobic tunes in the
wide open. Their bright faces and carefree mind struck the introvert in me, neither
minded the people around nor what their comments are. They stood tall in my
eyes for we fold inwards most of the time stopping ourselves from what we
desire thinking of the ‘W’ sequel, “What will they think? Will they think I am
crazy?”
Calm and quiet was the place as I moved close by the
sea. I could see few people sitting
around, some playing sports and few enjoying waves. I preferred to sit by a
sand bed gazing at the tides. I was sitting there patiently to witness the
beauty. Waiting for a sunrise is like watching a child in sleep and wait for
him to awake, the wait can be long but results in peace. My world has shrunk to the rushing wind
through ears and the sight of waves. I could perceive the wave trying to start
a conversation with its constant flow back and forth. I preferred to believe so
that I wanted to spit out my grievance rather graving inside. I felt having an
ear for my troubles, a sigh of relief. The conversation went on for a while with
my friend sea, a silent listener. It was indeed a futile effort, still lightened
my heart.
The tides increased its speed and it was almost reaching the
sand bed. It looked as if it was trying to reach me to console and promise for
betterment. I closely watched the
grounds to notice if my friend had reached me. If it brushes my foot my taut
will be washed off too, I hoped. Coming waves brought the levels closer but yet
to reach me. There I noticed a crab stuck in the flow, his balance collapsed.
He was moving back and forth along the waves fighting to reach his safe land. Trying
to escape the water, crab ran a distance as far as he can but only to have him
pulled back by the next wave. I felt sorry for him and wanted to see him
making the safe land. I winked at him and said “it’s the same in human race, we
are stuck with problems and every time you try to get out something or someone drowns
you back”. I did not see the crab moving anymore. It was static moving along
the waves. “Poor chap couldn't make it”, I thought believing it to be dead.
That moment I saw him making a magical leap, rather trying to run out of
the rushing water it settled static with the flow and once water reached its
boundary he leaped out of it falling on the ground and ran the safe distance.
“Escaping problems wouldn't help rather have it solved, a crab realized in
minutes but how many of us can?” I thought and of course I was happy for the
hero.
“What are you waiting for? Go get it”, a voice back of my
head. A middle aged fellow was jogging and talking over phone. I didn't know to
whom it was intended but it reckoned, “He who goes gets”. I stood up and took a
step towards the sea, water rushed brushing my foot. My heart weighed light,
mind set free and I was standing tall looking at the sea. The wait is over, he came
out, orange beauty, rays of hope, the Sunrise!
PS: Life is full of lessons but are we open?
